Today's Update....

24:01 again. Paying for it today though. I did way too much yesterday. Kept those new shoes on while I did 2 loads of laundry, made a huge batch of fruit salad, cooked dinner and cleaned the kitchen twice due to all that food prep.

New Recipe...

So tried a new recipe last night. It's something I printed out not long after my original start in this change in eating habits. I had printed it out when my father said he didn't know how to cook for me anymore. He's mostly a red meat man so I printed out a bunch of red meat recipes that he could do on his nights to cook. But since his heart attack, I've been doing all the cooking. So I gave this a shot last night. It's a Spice Rubbed Pork Tenderloin. I got the recipe from the Food Network website but it seems to have come to them via EatingWell.com.

My father seems to have found it to be a bit strange, but keep in mind he doesn't care for change. I on the other hand thought it was very good and my husband said it was the best piece of pork he'd ever had. I served it with the suggested Sweet and Tangy Watermelon Salad which my father and I enjoyed but my husband didn't as he doesn't care for cucumbers. I'll have to come up with another side that he'll enjoy when we eat the other half of the meat that was left.

Today's Walk...

Well the new shoes seem to have been money well spent. The added some difficulty to my walk, but not so much that I couldn't walk, just made me work harder to get it done. I'm now exhausted and sweaty. lol. Taking a short break, then going to shower and get started putting together the first batch of my fruit salad for the year. The family loves my fruit salad and it's a lot healthier for us than a lot of the snack stuff that's been in this house.

Oh. 24:01 just like yesterday.

Baby Got A New Pair Of Shoes...

So I've been looking at those Shape Ups that Skechers has now. I just really have a problem paying $100 or more for a pair of shoes. Even though I do love the brand, that's just a lot to be spending on shoes right now.

A friend said she found some just like it at her local Kmart but unfortunately the one here doesn't seem to carry them. Was rather disappointed in that too because she said she got them for $20.

But yesterday I ran into a bit of luck. I happened to be in Target looking for a few things when I said their Trim Step line of shoes. They normally run for almost $30 but the pair I got was on sale for $25. I put them on when I got to the parking lot and wore them for the rest of the day.

My feet were a little crampy last night but that's not abnormal for me when I get a new pair of shoes. Going to try them on the treadmill today, see how that goes. That will be the big test.

Restart Weigh In...

So I picked up a scale yesterday. Wasn't going to but my father is supposedly trying to lose weight as well (he seems to be under the impression that not eating as much but still eating junk and sitting on his ass is enough. Go figure) so he wanted a scale in the house. I have requested that it be hidden from me and will only weigh myself once or twice a month so I do not obsess over the numbers as I have in the past.

Today I weighed in at 217.5 lbs. I don't know what I was at when I blew the diet during the last month and a half of stress that my life became, but I know when I went to my doctor around the first of march I was around 220. Wanna say 223, but I don't remember now. Either way though I didn't gain back as much as I thought I had. Plus I am probably a little heavy right now anyway just from monthly female stuff.

So I am considering this good news. I did blow my diet and I did gain back some weight but the damage wasn't as bad as I had feared. I felt sure I was somewhere between 220 & 230 again, which was very disheartening. It's not as bad as I thought and I can move forward from here.

Today's Walk...

Only updating on my walking from now on. Will continue to add good recipes from time to time but other than that I'm not going to update on food every day. I'll update that when I have something really good but good for me.

Day one of walking. Went 1 mile at 2.5 mph in 24:01. No stops. Pretty good for a day one. Last time it took me like 2 weeks to be able to go without stopping once or twice in the middle. Perhaps I didn't lose everything after all.

Restart...

So here it is, April 26th and I'm restarting my change in eating habits I guess. Last month and a half complete and utter hell. Husband is pushing me to start this again. To be perfectly honest though, I don't want to. Don't get me wrong. I want to change my ways, eat healthier, exercise and lose weight. Just not right now. Right now I have so much on my plate that it's really the last thing I seem to be able to focus on. Not to mention the fact I don't think we can really afford it. I'm cooking every meal and the groceries are completely coming out of our pockets right now. Eating healthier costs a lot more.

But I also don't want to disappoint my husband. Aside from a bit of stress I didn't really need in the last few days, he's been really good to me. I just wish I could make him understand I'm not ready yet. I need calm and preparation before I can do this right and I'm just not there yet. I know he means well, trying to motivate me and get me going even though I don't want to. Works better when I've already started though.

Anyway, guess this is day 1 once again.... here goes nothing.

Quick Update...

So a lot has happened since my last post. First off, my laptop died while I was in Grand Rapids. My husband tried to fix it but it seems that it's just pooched. So instead of buying a new once, as that's the second one I've gone through in like 3 years, we updated our desktop computer instead. I'll be using that for a while, what little I am able to get online.

My dad is out of that horrible hospital and Grand Rapids finally. They just don't seem to care about their jobs or much of anything else in that hospital. He's been transferred to a physical rehabilitation facility in Southfield. It wasn't my first choice as it's an hour drive from our house but it was the only facility near any of the family that would take him.

Not speaking to some of my family right now. My Father's siblings as well as my Uncle's wife can't seem to get it in their heads that they do not have medical degrees and therefore they don't know what medications my father should and should not be on right now. They also can't seem to get it in their heads that any decisions while my father is unable to make them himself will be made by me and my siblings, not them. They also do not believe my father actually went through alcohol withdrawal, another reason they should be left out of his treatment decisions. I am no longer taking their calls as all speaking with them seems to do is raise my already high blood pressure.

The place my dad is in let me bring our dog to see him. I think it was really good for both of them. Have to get her into the vet before she can come back though as they need copies of the papers stating her shots are up to date and she's due for her yearly visit. Was going to get her in when dad got back from his trip, this just isn't how I saw that happening at the time.

My diet was completely blown by my time in Grand Rapids. The stress as well as the lack of my treadmill and the lack of healthy food choices in that horrible hospital did it in. Unfortunately right now I just don't have to time to do everything I was doing either so it's on hold until I get into the swing of things here or my father comes home so I have more time to myself again. I'm disappointed by this as I was doing so well. But all I can do is chalk it up as something that's out of my control. I know I can do it as I was doing it before. I just need to get some of the crap in my life under control so I can focus on it again.

Things on hold for a bit...

I know it's been quite some time since I updated. There is good reason for this. Saturday the 13th my husband and I got together with our best friends. That night (around 1 am Sunday morning), I got a phone call from my uncle that my father had a heart attack while visiting him in Big Rapids, Michigan. He was taken to the hospital there and soon transferred to a larger hospital in Grand Rapids. Needless to say, my life has been turned a bit upside down since this event.

After sobering up and getting about 3 hours of sleep, my husband and I made the 2 1/2 hour journey to Grand Rapids. My father had to have a procedure done Monday the 15th to clear a blocked artery and to put a stint in that artery to keep it open. Unfortunately that evening he also went into Alcohol Withdrawals. Yes, my father is an alcoholic. He's also in denial about it. Most people don't know because he is what I call a functioning alcoholic. He goes about his life like he hasn't had a drink at all. He's not abusive. He's not falling down. But yet every day he has 3-4 drinks and they are very strong drinks at that.

Due to the withdrawals he kept getting out of bed even though he wasn't supposed to. He was trying to leave the hospital even though we told him he couldn't. At times he didn't even know who I was and tried to hurt me (yes I know this was the withdrawals and not him, but it is still a sign to me of just how far gone my father was as he would never do such a thing to me under normal circumstances).

After it took almost a dozen people to keep him in his bed, they sedated him. Because of the sedation he also had to be on a breathing machine. It's taken them almost a week to get him off the sedation and breathing machine. In the process of all this he has also developed Pneumonia. So now it's a waiting game. With luck he will be able to leave the hospital at the end of the week, but considering originally he was supposed to leave the hospital a day or two after the stint was put in, I'm not holding my breath.

I'm still keeping up with my change in eating habits as much as hospital food will allow. I've had a couple little slips due to lack of healthy choices or stress. But all in all, I'm doing the best I can. I will start posting regularly again once I'm back home.

Something Happy...

So obviously my mood effects how well I do on a die.... I mean a change in nutritional habits. I fully admit if I'm upset I reach for the junk food. So to help combat that, here's a few things that have put a smile on my face today and hopefully they will do the same for those reading this.



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Today's Update....

Breakfast - Had a bowl of cheerios and a banana. Felt good to have cereal again since I haven't been able to in a while.

Exercise - 30:01.

Lunch - Ham Sandwich.

Dinner - Left over Breakfast Bake.

Nighttime Snack - Bag of Popcorn

Extra Exercise - Need to do laundry today. Also going to be cleaning house in case we have company over the weekend.

Today's Update....

Breakfast - The last of the damn muffins. Tomorrow I finally get to eat something else!!!!

Exercise - 30:01. Doing pretty good. Think I'll go at least one more week at this distance before I make any more adjustments.

Lunch - Turkey Sandwich on my homemade bread.

Dinner - Baked salmon patties with cheesey mashed potatoes and green beans. Sure the potatoes aren't exactly diet food, but I keep my portions low.

Nighttime Snack - Think I'll have another plum. Have one more that has to be eaten before it gets yucky.

Today's Update....

Breakfast - One of the last muffins. Can't wait for them to be gone so I can have something else.

Exercise - 30:01. Hard to push through today as I was having a 'I don't wanna get out of bed' day. I could have slept the day away.

Lunch - Another Turkey Sandwich. This time with the bread I made yesterday. For the first time making bread ever in my life, it wasn't bad. Next time I need to let it raise more though.

Dinner - Left over Chicken Börek.

Nighttime Snack - Think I'll have a plum.

A Mental Update....

So I haven't really posted too much more than my daily updates lately. There is a reason for this. Truth be told, I haven't had much I really wanted to say. But I suppose I should.

For some reason I've been growing more and more agitated in the past week. Granted, it's been happening off and on since this change to my nutritional habits began but I just figured that to be natural. I've come to the conclusion this isn't the case any longer.

My agitation has been growing until I know want nothing more than to scream and yell and break things. I want to tell everyone in my life to go fuck themselves, lock myself in my room and never come out again.

The strange part of this is I don't know why. It's not like anyone is doing anything different than they were a few weeks or few months ago. It's not like I'm due for my monthly. It's not like I'm depriving myself so much that I have a reason to be pissy. I just am.

Now I fully admit it's been a rough couple of weeks. The change in nutritional habits has thrown our finances for a bit of a loop. I had no idea that taking on 2 more cooking days and cooking healthier would add to the grocery bill as much as it did. But things are looking up in that concern so that can't be what's wrong.

Lack of work hasn't helped my disposition much either. But I'm fully aware that I'm not the only one with that problem and I am taking steps to try and fix that issue one way or another. So that shouldn't be it either.

And yes my father is a big issue with my stress levels. But even at his worst, I've never been this irritable simply because the man opened his mouth to speak. He even looks at me right now and I want to rip him a new one. That's not normal.

Perhaps Spring Fever isn't helping? We have gotten warmer weather the last couple days and I'm pretty much home bound until payday. But that can't be the whole answer. I've had Spring Fever before and it's never been like this.

All I want right now is some peace and quiet. No questions from my father, no fox news blaring from the tv, no dog barking and every little thing that moves outside our front window, no cats meowing to get my attention...

I just wish I knew why I was like this right now. I hope it gets better... and soon so I don't go off on someone.

Today's Update.

Breakfast - Another stupid muffin and a banana. Only like 2 of them left. Thank god!!!

Exercise - 30:01. Rough one as I snuck it in while in the middle of making some bread. Too long on my feet.

Lunch - Turkey sandwich. Banana cream pie yogurt.

Dinner - New Recipe.... Chicken Börek. Wasn't bad, but I need to to do some modifications to the recipe. First off, the way they had me close it made it really doughy on the bottom. Second, father and husband weren't happy about the raisins in it. Peas were suggested for next time.

Daily Update...

Breakfast - Yet another crappy bran muffin and 2 Clementines.

Exercise - 30:01. Went 1 1/4 miles at 2.5 mph. Felt rather good.

Lunch - Turkey sandwich with a yoplait yogurt in the red velvet cake flavor.

Dinner - Grilled salmon with lemon basil spaghetti. Salmon was great.... spaghetti not so much.

Nighttime Snack - Felt like popcorn again.

Low Cal Recipes... Raspberry - Barley Pudding

Raspberry - Barley Pudding

Courtesy of Betty Crocker's Whole Grains Cookbook

1 3/4 Cups Water
1/2 Cup Uncooked Hulled Barley
1 Container (6 oz) French Vanilla Low-Fat Yogurt
1/4 Cup Maple-Flavored Syrup
1 Cup Frozen (Thawed) Reduced-Fat Whipped Topping
1/3 Cup Chopped Walnuts, Toasted
1/2 Teaspoon Ground Cinnamon
1 Cup Fresh or Frozen (Thawed & Drained) Raspberries
Dash Ground Cinnamon
Additional Chopped Walnuts, If Desired

In 2 quart saucepan, heat water to boiling. Stir in barley; reduce heat. Cover; simmer 1 hour or until tender. Cool completely, about 30 minutes. In medium bowl, mix yogurt and maple syrup. Gently stir in whipped topping. Stir in barley, walnuts and 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon. Cover; refrigerate 2 hours. Stir raspberries into pudding. Sprinkle pudding with dash of cinnamon and additional walnuts before serving.

Today's Update...

Breakfast - Yet another crappy bran muffin. They're almost gone thank god, will never make them ever again.

Exercise - 24:01

Lunch - Dad was nice enough to go get some lunch meat so I had a turkey sandwich.

Dinner - Dad's night to cook. He made this breakfast bake thing. Eggs, ham, mushrooms, on top of this dough stuff. It wasn't bad.

Nighttime Snack - Felt rather hungry most of the day for some reason so I had a bag of popcorn to help fill me up.

Yesterday's Update....

Sorry but I got into a good book and forgot to update...

Breakfast - Another crappy bran muffin.

Exercise - 24:01.

Lunch - Bowl of Cereal. Not ready for in the mornings yet but we're out of lunch meat and I couldn't find anything else I wanted to eat.

Dinner - Dad's assortment of leftover items that are about the worst thing I could be eating. Kept my proportions low and stayed away from the gravy.

Splurge - For my Saturday splurge I made Barley Pudding. It's low cal, healthy due to the barley and very similar to rice pudding.

A bit more humor....

So I've had a bad couple of days. Went looking for some things to make me smile. Hope you all enjoy as well.






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